Jack Undecided

Well the trial extubation was just that, a trial. He lasted less than 24 hours before they re-intubated him. They had him on the CPAP (provides positive air pressure to help him breathe) but he did not like it! He did okay at first just seemed aggravated by the CPAP (it straps onto his head). As the evening progressed he was requiring a higher oxygen concentration and a stronger oxygen flow. Also he continued to be agitated and his heart rate was elevated. Considering all of these, the doctor decided to reintubate him. Hopefully they will be able to try again in a little while. :-(

Even though we knew that was a chance, it's still pretty disappointing that it didn't work. Other than the breathing, Jack is doing well. He keeps moving up on his feeds and is quickly gaining weight. He's up to 1180 grams at his last weighing which is around 2 pounds 9 1/2 ounces! I've been able to kangaroo him a couple times in the last few days which is absolutely awesome. Mackenzie was up for one of those visits and it was incredible to watch the joy on her face as she got to see her baby brother up close and out of the box. It's amazing the relationship that she already has with him. She is so in love with her brother. It's also amazing the faith that she is able to display during all of this. We had the following conversation after I talked to the doctor this morning:

Mackenzie: "Mommy, why are you crying?"
Mommy: "I'm crying because I miss Baby Jack."
Mackenzie: "Well mommy, I don't cry because I miss Baby Jack. I just pray to God when I miss him."

Wow, what a humbling moment for a mommy. Also such a comfort to know that she has her faith to draw on.

I'll post again soon,

~Jeny